INITIATION
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Just allowing yourself to get grounded into
your body and into your breath, and into this
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moment with a sense of gratitude for whatever
force in your life brought you here.
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The color I'm seeing for this month is violet,
and that makes the theme of the month, I think,
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really focused on our spiritual energy.
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If I had to put a word to the theme of the
month for April, it would be initiation.
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Initiation.
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With violet, there's this mistiness and this
mystery and this sense of the unknown, and
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with any initiation in life we go through,
there's also a sense of going into that as
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well.
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You know the big initiations that we have
throughout the span of lives is: birth, graduations,
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marriages, divorces, retirement, giving birth,
changing career paths, death...
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there's also initiations into the mystery
schools and initiations in the hidden realms,
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and initiations into our own practices that
we bring forward.
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I myself have gone through many many initiations
and the energy of initiation is something
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that I can really really speak to because
I'm very experienced with it.
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I'm not going to get into my whole story,
because you can read it in my bio on my website,
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but I want to talk more about the sort of
feeling of initiation.
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You know there's something inside of us that
we're always preparing for.
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We're always preparing for something.
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We're always preparing for our new way, or
the new phase or time that is to come, and
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when it comes the right time, when we've worked
hard enough, when we've prepared enough, when
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we've purified ourselves enough, when we've
cleansed enough, when we've faced ourselves
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enough, when we've faced our fears enough,
this is the moment when we sort of stand at
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the entry way into the portal of initiation
into whatever it is that we're stepping into,
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going into next.
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That feeling of working so hard toward something
and preparing for something and then standing
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at the entry point about to ... it to be about
to happen, is so nerve-wracking and scary
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and also wrought with a lot of test -- you
know -- a lot of obstacles for us to overcome.
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And we know, we can almost sense and feel
those obstacles, and in some ways, we feel
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like, well, what would happen if I were to
go backwards?
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Do I have to do this initiation because I
was really comfortable in this place that
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I was in?
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But there's something inside of us that pulls
us forward and says, no no, it's time.
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Do the initiation.
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So, we cross the threshold and we enter into
this place of initiation, and then we're met
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with at least three really really powerful
tests.
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Tests that will make us want to give up.
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Tests that will make us doubt and question
ourselves and question our intentions.
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Even tests that will make any movement forward
or any continuation of the initiation process
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seem futile, and maybe even bring us a sense
of hopelessness, but then there's something
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inside of us that gives us the courage to
continue.
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There's something inside of us that gives
us the courage to move forward and move on,
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and we stand up to every test, and we find
this place inside of us that is so still and
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silent and so sacred -- sacred as in meaning
set aside -- and sacred also as in meaning
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holy, right?Like we go into our inner kingdom,
our inner holy place.
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We go into that place.
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Then all of these tests that are around us
and that are coming through in this initiation,
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they don't seem so intense because we've found
that kind of still anchor within us to be
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able to move forward.
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Then, what we're doing as we're stepping up
to these tests and we're moving from one test
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to another -- I mean there's at least 3, if
not 7, if not 13 tests within any initiation
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process, right?
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Like the 3 trimesters of pregnancy for example...
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When we move through them and when we overcome
the challenges presented to us, what we're
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doing is building confidence in ourselves,
and confidence maybe also in life and the
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cycles of life and the rhythms of life in
general.
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We come out on the other side and we feel
so strong and we feel so ready for anything
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that is to come... and later on when there
are challenging energies around us, we know
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how to handle those energies because of the
initiation that we went through.
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So, whatever initiation that we go through,
whether it's as an individual, with our spiritual
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process, or it's just that part of being human
and living life, or if we go through initiations
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as a collective, every initiation that we
go through provides us with a certain kind
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of shield -- like a layer of protection, the
like bull's horns... it gives us a sort of
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sense of stability within us and this feeling
of, 'because of everything that I've been
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through and everything I've overcome, I know
that I can handle anything that is to come.'
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Resilience, you know, initiation gives us
a really strong sense of resilience.
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It's this place for us to go back to, and
there's so much happening within the unseen
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realms, and many many people try to define
and put words and explanations to what's happening
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with the unseen realms because they're uncomfortable
with mystery and a little bit stuck in masculine
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paradigms, so there's a lot of labels for
different dimensions within the unseen realms
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or different spiritual histories that we have,
and I don't pay too too much attention to
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labeling and identifying things because I
love the mystery and my work here is to create
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that balance between the masculine and the
feminine and bring back a little more of the
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feminine's embrace of mystery, but what I
can tell you is that there's so much happening
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in the unseen realms and there's a lot of
challenges that we face even as we lie down
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and go to sleep at night and go into our dreaming
self and come a little bit out of our third
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dimensional perceptions, and when we are in
this place of having gone through spiritual
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initiations, the challenges that we face on
the spiritual realm -- and usually always
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when we're facing challenges on a spiritual
plane, a spiritual level, they're also happening
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within 3-d and physical life -- but as initiate
when you're challenged in this spiritual way
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-- maybe there's bothering spirits around
or harmful energies going after really innocent
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energies (there's so much that can happen
-- you know as an initiate that not only can
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you stand up to it, can you handle this energy,
but also you kind of have a responsibility
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to stand up to these things and to work through
these things and to, essentially, battle your
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own inner demons in order to create that sense
of harmony and balance in our collective,
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around us.
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So, I think it's important to acknowledge
and understand the initiations that maybe
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you are going through right now.
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What are you leaving behind and what are you
stepping into?
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It's also the energy of spring, right?
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The energy of new beginnings, stepping into
the new way.
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Every flower that blooms has gone through
the initiation of coming from the seed, busting
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through the ground, and having the courage
to bloom.
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Earth gives us this really amazing example
of initiation as well.
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What are you leaving behind?
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What are you coming from and what are you
going into?
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What are you becoming?
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And also, what do you have the courage to
stand up to now?
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What do you have the courage to face now?
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What are the things that this new spiritual
perspective, this violet light, this new spiritual
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way, this initiation -- what has it shown
you?
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What has it taught you?
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How does that prepare you for future initiations
to come?
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I wish you so much growth at this time and
the courage to grow, and the courage to walk
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through these different thresholds with your
sense of self in tact, with your connection
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to your inner voice, and the absolute power
of the love that is within you and all around
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you.